Spend time with family, check. Acquire all necessary travel items, check. Clean and sell car, check and double-check. Things were coming together for my March departure date. Longing to meet the students and join my team of teachers was increasing. Needless to say, when I heard that my plane ticket was canceled and travel delayed for at least an additional month, my heart sunk into my feet, stuck there for a moment in time.
What? Wait a minute. This isn’t what I had planned. My friends continue on with life in Colorado and I’m here in Orange County with no job and no car. Will I ever actually be in Tibet? With this second delay, it’s starting to feel more like a far-off illusion. Father, what am I supposed to do with myself right now?
I can be a little dramatic once in a while. Who in their right mind complains about a month of not having to work in lovely Southern California? But these were my initial, reactionary thoughts. As I let the news simmer for the next few days, a gentle voice played on a tape reel in my mind…
Know me. Spend time with me. Think on me. I exist, even in the details. Do you think I’m surprised by this turn of events? Do you think this is beyond my control? Fight it or accept it. See this as a disruption of your plans or as a smooth continuation of mine. Focus on the frustration or focus on the new opportunities open before you.
Reflecting on the dreams and hopes I shelved for this 2 year commitment in Asia, I remembered that this isn’t the first time my own plans have been “disrupted”. Thank goodness. Have I not yet learned that the man upstairs has something way better? These past few months have been so rich and sweet. They never would have happened if I hadn’t said “yes” to His plan.
Perspective is everything. It’s what makes your glass half full. It’s how you know the sun setting on one dream is really just a starlit night, awaiting the dawn of new dreams fulfilled. Maybe mine needed a check. Maybe I’ll wait out the night and enjoy the stars in the meantime.